Kalo mo dibilang lagu lama sebenernya juga belun lama banget. Secara waktu gw minta "putus" dari dia baru januari taun ini, which is less than 4 bulan lalu. Gw gak bilang literally minta putus, lantaran qta emang gak pernah jadian..

Di tengah hari bolong, pas lagi telp an ma dia, gw suddenly (or kalo kata orang sunda mah ujug-ujug) bilang kalo gw kepingin balik kayak dulu lagi.. waktu antara gw ma dia belun ada "apa-apa". n dia pun yg setuju.. gw gak tau siy dia keberatan or apa.. dia cuma bilang dia kangen masa lalu, jaman dia has nothing to worry about kalo gw telp or sms pas dia lagi ama si missus. Or gak perlu repot2 ngapusin sms2 dari gw yg suka agak2 sinting itu..

Dan berakhirlah affair kami.. as simple as that.. we still joke about it from time to time.. we still act as if we're jealous to each other n still try to make each other jealous every now n then.. Frekwensi lunch ber-2 berkurang banget, paling cuma acara ngopi n ngerokok bareng di awal minggu yg masih.. Itu pun gak harus ber2.. n dalam situasi cuma berdua pun kita gak pernah melakukan hal2 yg mungkin diam2 masih diinginkan (from his side.. not mine).. hahaha..

Sampe mungkin sekitar sebulan yl.. I have to admit.. n I even admitted this to him.. I'm kinda miss him.. I miss his laugh.. I miss his jokes, even the bad ones.. I miss his hug, I miss his kiss, I miss his caress.. Gampangnya, gw kangen.. Agak banget.. *pusing gak lo, istilah-nya gak jelas banget dweh..*

Dan mungkin gw juga ngerasa, kalo sebenernya dia agak gak rela ama gw yg dengan mudahnya minta "putus" waktu itu.. Gak tau ding.. Tp feeling gw siy bilang begitu. Dan dia siy kayaknya gak keberatan pas gw bilang kalo gw agak kangen ama dia belakangan ini.. Walaupun gak bilang apa2 juga..

Kadar kegilaan gw rasa masih normal.. *ada ya, gila tapi normal.. wah makin gak jelas neeh*. Rasa2 desperado-deep in blue-obsessive compulsive belun nongol.. cuma kangen aja.. gitu.. Is that so hard to understand?

Tadi malem.. Qta akhirnya baru ber-2 an lagi, dini hari, setelah sekian lama. Balik jalan ma anak2 kantor. Dia mo nganterin gw balik. Masih biasa. Sampe pas dia salah belok (on purpose, I think..), trus belagak salah inget rumah ce lain. Trus pas gw (sok) ngambek, dia malah megang tangan gw.. Dan gw gak nolak.. Well, what should I do..?? I told u that I'm kinda miss him..

Sampe depan kost gw.. he didn't let go.. n when he reached for me, I didn't do anythin.. Maybe I was kinda waiting for that moment actually. The moment where finally we kissed.. again.. After all this time (eventhough belun terlalu lama juga).. Ternyata the last kiss - whenever it was - was not the last one.. I didn't know (yet).

Finally, he let me go.. after that passionate kiss he gave.. I was just feeling content.. n was teasing him.. When I moved on my way out, gw bilang, "Yakinn.. gak mau mampir dulu..?" Yes, I was only teasing him.. It was 1.30 in the morning, n I know him too well that I know he doesn't have the guts to do such of thing.. He was like laughing, realized that I was only teasing him, n caressed my head n then reached for me again, n yes.. he kissed me.. again.. Then I knew, the last one wasn't really the last one.. Well, maybe this one..

Then.. we said goodbye. I realized that he has to be somewhere else.. n I was quite happy with those kisses.. Just a normal dose.. n I think I don't want anything more than that..

Again.. Cuma mo bilang.. Kalo gw kangen ma dia.. Cuma kangen doang.. Titik.