There was a time when I really admired him. Admired him for what he did, admired him for the road he chose, admired him for moving from his safe shelter, although he might have other choice at that time. That was being irresponsible, insensitive little bastard like he used to be..

There was a time when I really obsessed about him.. physically. Attracted to him, sexually.. there was a time when I had to take so many cold showers just because I thought of him.

There was a time when I thought I had found the rough diamond I've been looking for so long. There was a time that I would not let him go for anything. Maybe love, maybe lust.. I was not sure..

There was a time he made me broken hearted. Just stood me up like that. Like I was nothing for him. None.. Nada.. Nothing at all.. Then after sometime, after all those tears and sleepless nights.. came all the madness..

I was angry.. I felt betrayed.. and one thing I have to tell you, my dear friend.. Revenge is sweet! Really really sweet... It is so good to hear myself saying, "BIAR MAMPUSS!!!"

Now, eventhough he said that we still can be friends, be lovers, be enemies... It is up to me to choose.. All I can say to you, my friend.. [It seems that I still do not have a heart to tell him this]... Revenge is really sweet... indeed.. Now tell me, my dear, why would I want something else..?